Heyy
How do you know what you feel? I mean, people think they love people. Or hate people. Or loathe, lust after and pity. How do you know what any of these actually feel like? How do you know the true extent of your feelings? Jealousy, confusion, happiness, sadness, anger. Things we feel on a daily basis. You know what they feel like. But hate and love. How do you know what that feels like if you've never felt it before? Love. How do you know it's not just some crush that you are just exagerrating? Hate. How can you tell the difference between hatred and disliking someone? How do you know what you are actually feeling. How do you know what to call it? How do you put a name to it? Is it normal to be so confused?
Today I saw my dad for the first time in years. It was good to see him. I saw my half brother for the first time ever. I think he's about 4 or 5. It was nice to finally meet him. Callum and my dad. Lol. So the boys are spending the weekend with him. Which meant I finally got peace and quiet :p
So I went to Shere with my mum to take pictures for photography. A little country village. It would have been a hell of a lot better if it wasn't as busy. I have never seen a country village so busy. But I guess Shere would be busy seeing as films are set there. So I decided I want a house somewhere like that. An old house. A big house. A big, old house in a quiet lil' village. Sounds great, right?
I got my nails done for the first time in ages. First time since prom I think. So, I think I got them slightly longer than I did before because they seem slightly more difficult to type, text and generally do stuff with. It is rather annoying. Lol. Whilst I sat in the nail parlour thing I decided that it was just as boring as getting your hair cut. And you have to admit, it is kinda boring.
So I bumped into Jae and Elliot soon after that and we decided to dye Jae's hair ginger to raise money for Haiti. So, it wouldn't be as funny except Jae daily takes the piss out of gingers. He still calls me ginger and I haven't been for 3 years. Stupid hair dye made it happen. Lol. So, As soon as we get 50 people on this group he HAS to do it and can't back out. Just gotta hope we get to 50 very soon. Lol.
I am sat here watching some sappy chick flick. I hate that they always end up in love, and with a happily ever after. Something that never happens in real life. These films can really get you down. You have the girls who get everything they want by the end, no matter how much they screw up. Nothing like that EVER happens in real life. Aren't these films meant to make you feel happy? Instead they give you false hopes, high expectations and let downs when you realise life will never be like that.
I am home alone for the night. Kinda boring. Boys are out. Mothers out. I'm in. Why do I feel like the odd one out here? No wait, I have the dog. How fun!!
That's it for now
Will blog later
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