You're never gonna get it with nothing, and nothing's what you've got in your head

Heyy, it's been a while.

Have you ever just took a step back and looked at everything? At everyone. You never really notice anything until you do. You don't really notice the way people have changed. The was people act towards different people. It makes me laugh that you can be so involved in everything one minute, then the next you feel like you are on the outside looking in. But it's being on the outside and looking in that you really see how different people act. How different people have changed since you first met them. Some people change so gradually that you don't actually notice until you want to notice. Then there are the people who change so quickly just to get something they want. We all have a friend who does it. Changed to get what they want. Whether it be guys, money, attention. They still change. They become a person you don't like as much as the old them. They become...different. It's like you don't know them anymore. Have you ever just sat back and watched as they change. Those people that change so quickly. You can see it happen infront of your eyes but you know there is nothing you can do about.  Then you wait. Why do you wait? You know you are going to get annoyed by them and when you finally tell them you don't like who they've become it's too late. There is no going back. All you can do is sit back and watched as they ruin everything they have. Friendships. Relationships. Education.

So I'm going back to college today. Yes today, in like 5/6 hours so I have a feeling I should probably get some sleep. I'm in one of them moods when I want to sleep but I can't. That's probably because I've been going to bad late for the past two weeks but I should still be able to sleep.

So me and my best friend have just recently started talking again after having a huge argument. I may have called her a few names that I didn't mean. I called her stuck up because at the time she wasn't half tooting her own horn. But then I was trying to think of ways to piss her off and upset her. I decided since she is always going on about how she hates her mum that I was going to say she was exactly like her. It probably wasn't a very good idea seeing as her mum didn't like me that mush before. All I know is, I won't be getting in her car anytime soon.

So, I've been extremely happy at the moment. I have amazing friends who are there for me when I need them, That be you Dan and Stuie :p I have an amazing boyfriend who makes me sooo happy. I have an awesome family who at the moment I have been getting along with suprisingly well. So what can go wrong. I've done a load of photography for my exam and I am quite confident about finishing on time and everything. I'm confident with my sociology.

So I have a bit of a dilema when it comes to Media and English. Jenks has already said I can drop English as soon as I've taken the exam. But now I don't really want to take edia as an A2. I was thinking about maybe dropping them both and picking up Phychology as both AS and A2, like some year 13's have been doing with Sociology. I might have to go and talk to Jenks about that.

So I can't think of anything else that has happened and is worth writing about so I be off to bed now. I am getting a lil' sleepy.

Will blog later

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